Happy Valentine Day

I had everything I wished. Loving mother, warm siblings and wonderful friends. I had stable job and about enough amount of money. I also had almost everything which money can buy. Yet there was some part in me which was empty. I was always with someone but yet so alone. I was longing for something, I was not aware of. I didn't know how to get it since I was not sure what I missed at first place. I was definitely happy ; enjoying life yet something was amiss. I could not understand it myself and explaining this to someone else was next to impossible.

And then you came along. You were unknown person to me. I never met you. I never talked to you before. Although our first meeting was not arranged out of pure luck, only my good luck must have drawn me towards you.

and we met again and again.... you became my friend... You became my best friend. Sooner than my wildest imagination, we fell in love.   for the first time in my life, I was not alone. I had you and you had me. The world was perfect and we swam in powerful emotion not known before to us; called love. I almost thought I knew everything that needs to be known as far as love is concerned.

I was so wrong...

You came to my life as my better half. You sacrificed your career, your family, your sibling, your friends and overnight became part of my family and part of me. You showed me another aspect of love; something more deep; something I could have never known; something I had never experienced before. You loved me a way I could not have hoped.

Our love blossomed and you gave me God's wonderful gift. Our first child. You completed me. you completely filled the part in me which was empty. Nothing was amiss now. I was whole. with your constant support  and guidance , I have reached new heights personally and professionally.

It says love is complex emotion. People tried defining it and they failed miserably. I can say that I don't need to define love, I feel it everyday in you and our child.

I love you , my friend; my love ; my life ... and .. my wife.

City of Traffic

What is one thing, which one would observe when he comes to Banglore? Is it atmosphere? Is it gardens? Is is beautifully constructed airport?

One would obviously can't ignore above good things about this city. Not to mention, lot of money specially when you are working in IT or ITes related companies.

But someone really can't ignore roads filled with endless numbers of vehicles. In pick hours, it takes usually one hour to travel minimum distance of 5 kms. Imagine two hours gone out of your days travelling not more than 10 kms. 

Currently every one in Banglore is waiting for metro train development to be done. Let's hope metro would become magical wand to solve all traffic woes of Banglore.

Till than one has to enjoy long wait on roads in City of traffic.

The Long Pause

It's been long since I didn't post anything on this!!

Why!!???

Is it fear of letting part of myself known to someone, whom I don't know?
or
Is it fear of how content/post would get accepted by someone who is reading my blog?
or
Is it just that I didn't have time to get to a PC and write

Well , I don't know and I am not telling also.. reason's personal!!!

Will I keep posting? Not sure..

If you are interested to know.. keep visiting the blog!!!

God is always with you!!!

This is about the experience, I had few days back. It was late night Sunday and I just left my brother at Kalupur Railway Station so that he could catch a train to Pune. Though the watch showed that it was nearly 11 pm, I was not at all feeling sleepy, posibly because of the rest I got during last festival long weekend. When I crossed Delhi Darwaja, I felt something odd. The reason was the unexpected crowd gathered around Delhi Darwaja. My instinct was telling me that something was definitely wrong.
Intuition became true when I drove my car for around 1 km. There was a guy standing in the middle of the road and asking everybody to make detour to the alternate alleyway rather the main road. "वहा मत जाइए आगे पथ्थार्बजी हुई है। कार को नुकशान होगा। कुछ कोमी (दंगल ) हुआ हैं " For a split second, flash of different thoughts came in my mind and a cold shiver traveled through my spine. I was thoroughly terrified. I had not other option but to obey what a guy was telling me. I took the alleyway which was dimly lit. Those, who have stayed in Ahmedabad for a while can understand about the risk of going on the road, which you have never seen. The roads of Ahmedabad city area are like labyrinth. You cannot risk of traversing the road, on which you have never set foot on. I had no freaking clue where I was going. My mind was completely blank by the fear. I couldn't even remember how much distance I drove with completely blank mind. Just then my car came to a halt at cross roads. AMTS bus was standing idle in front of me. It seemed like it had been hit by stones before some time back. All glasses of bus windows were broken. Suddenly I heard glass crashing sound behind my back. Immediately I realized that somebody had thrown heavy stone on the back of my car and had been successful in breaking glass of by car. I realized that I was just victim of what they were calling as "पथ्थार्बाजी". I was completely terrified and shocked. "What if there are more people ahead. What if they are pulling people out of car!!! " I prayed to God, press my foot hard on accelerator and drove as fast as I could. Again I had no clue where I was heading. I was just saving my self. This road was completely un-known to me as the previous one. My mind also went completely blank by the recent accident happened. My senses returned to me only when I drove for almost 1-1.5 kms, finally crossed the Sabarmati river and came on Ashram Road.

What was it, who showed me the correct path after I took alleyway? What was it, who showed me path after my car was badly hit? It cannot be my conscious mind as it was completely blank because of fear. Can it be sub-conscious mind? I do not think so as that was the first time I was going on that particular road. My only conclusion is that somebody was driving me. Somebody was showing me the path. In other words somebody was with me in that car and navigating my way out of that alleyway I did not know. It was entity above my sub-conscious mind. It is said that God is always there with us. On that day I experienced that fact.

On the following day curfew broke in the area in which I was driving my car. I still cannot imaging what would have happened if I got lost in that particular night and how much God had helped me when I needed him the most.

Experience!!!

"Experience is not knowing what to do. It is about knowing what not to do"

This was told to me by one of the professionals of my field few years back, when I was with him doing some verification work.

Believe me!! as my (professional) experience is increasing day by day, I come to know more and more about "what not to do".

It is something like you do something new, make new mistakes , know about it and make sure you won't repeat it again. you will see that your what-not-to-do list is growing and so is your experience.

It is not only true in case of professional life. It is quite true for our normal life also. If one doesn't do the above in his routine life, he may not be considered as "experienced" even though he grows older day by day.